some thoughts...

christmas wish?...maybe i hope to be slightly more daring, courageous, aggresive to fight for things in life that i want? which is equivalent to being a ~~lil' meaNiE~~ (that's to me...)

oh..was inspired / enlightened / influenced (??whatever u like to call it) by someone last night..which i felt myself being minute as compared to her courage~

i dunno.. but i have nv fought for things i want.. i am happy and contented so long as ppl around me are happy..

in other words.. i have maybe never smiled and laughed truthfully for MYSELF!!! if you know what i meant..

always conceding defeat when i never even try.. maybe cos i will nv do things or excute actions which i do not have confidence in, in aspect ratio of success versus failure i deem in advance...

IF only i am more courageous.. maybe..things might.. =) *shruggz*