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It was just like a piece of music...

it was the Overture, there were no Bridges or Intervals in between..only Mancando..then comes the Finale and Fine..followed by Abrupt Silence..

why...

why cant we coexist amicably?! (should i add.. like we used to be?!)

doesnt he find it tiring to hafta ACT ACT ACT!!! (was that hypocrisy, animosity between us i see?)

finally understood wat this person meant by

"things will never be the same again = sad to tell you this the crack is there.."

this person might have forgotten these wrds.. but these wrds are the "crack" at least to me..

yeah..crack is there.. it will be there to stay FOREVER.. used to be so naive and think time will heal.. but think i am giving up cos i am really tired of acting.. no matter what i do it jus doesnt help!

qns posted to me by this person in the past, "hw long can you act?! till you cannot take it and just blow up?!".. "u are a lousy actor.." guess i have never knew myself this well either..

erm maybe i am.. which i thought i have been keeping up with the acting pretty well.. oh and i was so wrong.. jus so wrong.. & recently i just added something to hafta act AGAIN! yay yay..me AGAIN!

if this person have seen through and through everything all the time.. really thankful & grateful for letting me retain some of my pride =) by not stomping on my overflawed "shows"..

maybe our "status @ wrk" have changed, i have changed, this person have changed, i dunno..i wish to get out of EVERYTHING! yeah.. run away if u gonna brand it..

whatever it is..it was just never meant to be..

for the past..erm..abt two and half yrs (since 9th july 2005 to be exact)..was just another lesson and test for me frm the lord my god.. nw i am gonna turn to my lord again.. cos he will never abandon me!

nevermind.. lesson learnt.. move on.. move on.. i should just MOVE ON!

okok..so be it.. cos i am really really very very very tired.. sick & tired

i have been refusing to admit it as i have always been so confident that i will never do things i regret.. but i regret.. i really do..

nevertheless, there were some nice memories..

=) goodnight ppls~ the usual still goes on tmr.. rise & shine again..

some thoughts...

christmas wish?...maybe i hope to be slightly more daring, courageous, aggresive to fight for things in life that i want? which is equivalent to being a ~~lil' meaNiE~~ (that's to me...)

oh..was inspired / enlightened / influenced (??whatever u like to call it) by someone last night..which i felt myself being minute as compared to her courage~

i dunno.. but i have nv fought for things i want.. i am happy and contented so long as ppl around me are happy..

in other words.. i have maybe never smiled and laughed truthfully for MYSELF!!! if you know what i meant..

always conceding defeat when i never even try.. maybe cos i will nv do things or excute actions which i do not have confidence in, in aspect ratio of success versus failure i deem in advance...

IF only i am more courageous.. maybe..things might.. =) *shruggz*